Today makes 16 days until the big day!!! It is so crazy thinking, that we have been planning for over 18 months, and it is finally coming to an end. Not that I will be sad to not be planning a wedding, because believe me, I have had my fair share of stress and anxiety over this wedding, but apart of me is is anixous about turning over a new leaf and being a wife.
What if I am not good at it? What if I cant make all the best meals? What if I dont clean enough and support him enough?? I know that I cant keep thinking what if, because I cant live my life that way, but I cant help but think of what if I am not a good wife.
I guess the best way for me to learn how to be a great wife is surrounding myself around great people and learning from them, all the tricks of the trade! Shout out to Jen, Jamie, and Momma G, of course my BFF Brit.
Theses woman are beautiful, wonderful, amazing, and inspiring. I pray that I am as good of a wife, friend, daughter, mother, sister as these woman. They have encouraged me along the way and I am so blessed to have them in my life and apart of my family! Love you girls!
Another person by my side and that I have discovered an amazing relationship with is God. Before I started going to premarital counseling with a family friend whom is a pastor at a local church, I didnt have much of an understand for God and his doings. Through months of reading and asking questions and raising my hand while drinking coffee, I have learned so much! I appreciate all that the lord has done for me and my family and friends and it amazes me that he has so much love in his heart. I have put my faith and god and although, I didnt see it at first, I feel him with me, helping me through the stress and making his presence in my life. God is Great!
Shout out to Joey too :) He has surely been dealing with the stress and anxiety of this wedding along with a partial bridezilla next to me. He has been great and everyday, when I wake up I tell him the days until the wedding and I love him more and more each and everyday. I am so blessed that he is in my life and loves me and appreciates me for me! He makes me strive to be the best wife I can be to him! Love you BBC. ;)
Okay, so I;m not a crier but Cat, you got me.
ReplyDeleteYou are going to be a wonderful wife. Believe it sister!
You've blossomed through this proceess Catherine. In 7 years, I have not seen you grow as much as you have in the past 18 months. Every tear, anxiety attack, joyful moment, and fight has totally been worth the lessons we've both learned. I can't wait to see you and Joey as husband and wife!!!
ReplyDeleteP.S. I love you too.
P.S.S. since Joey will essentially be my brother, I'm making him take me to movies after you get married, because you won't!