Changes

I suck at blogger, I am well aware.....

Since the last time I posted, a few things are changing and so much seems to be going on, its like a never ending train ride.


First, we went to South Carolina for our anniversary in August and it was amazing!!!! I flew into Atlanta for our layover, which by the way sucks and is the worst airport I have ever flown into, but then we were off to Savannah. Savannah/Hilton Head Airport is amazing. It is nice and elegant and makes you feel like you landed in a country club. Awaiting our arrival was our friend Alyssa and her beautiful babies, Lily and Jack. OMG, they are sooooooooo cute..... Alyssa lives about 45 mins from the airport in Lady's Island, SC.

It was green, it was humid, it was sunny, and it was warm and I was in heaven. I loved it there. They lived near the water, but their parents their beautiful backyard has a walk way to the water, which they have a boot and kayak.  We went to the 2 different beaches, we went to the pool, Charleston, saw some of the history of SC, and had some of the most amazing fired food and sweet tea!!I was so sad to leave and seriously WOULD NOT MIND living there forever in the heat.

Once we returned from SC, I started school again and after about a month of that stressball bs, I decided to drop my Chem class and instead have joined a program to get my certification to become a doula.(Now I am still taking classes at CU)  This was shocking to some family members, but I have talked about being a doc, midwife, labor and delivery nurse, something to do with pregnancy and labor and delivery for a long time and now I am reaching for my goals.  I had my first class a few weeks ago and it was amazing. I enjoyed every second of the 8.5 hour class. It is my calling, I can feel it in my bones.I have several more classes and have to attend and assist in 3 births and I will officially a doula. I am so excited about this journey and the opportunities it could bring.

I also celebrated my 25th birthday, which makes me feel old.

In other news, we have decided to place our house on the market and moving (not to SC :( ) When we bought our house 3 years ago, we were a little blinded by the work that was needed to upgrade and make this house of ours, our own. We were so excited and were optimistic of the potential that the house had and really it is a great house, but we realized after putting a SH*T of work into it that the potential we dreamed of cost money..... a lot of money....... and when it came down to it, no matter how we remodeled and upgraded, there were features that we couldn't change EVER. For example, our master is small and yes it would be nice to expand it to make it  bigger, but again, that cost more money than it would be worth. ALSO, the small detail that J hates our neighborhood......

Its a good neighborhood, full of older couples, nice big and old trees, and a great school down the street BUT we live on a corner lot and have GHETTO apartments across from us, no matter how we remodel the house, the apartments will always be there. So after a night of loud music, the cops being called, and speed racing, J said were moving.

So that is where we are at, we are fixing what will increase our value of the house; carpet, fixtures, bathrooms (J's diy disaster) and new paint, we are placing this bad boy on the market and hoping to get in a new home!

Lots of changes but were excited to what door it will open for us in the future!

BLOG SOON, I PROMISE!!!

Busy Busy Bee

Sorry I have not posted in a few weeks. Work has been busy busy and its been really difficult to get the time during the day to blog!

Let's talk cable for a minute. We have cable and internet and spend a ridic amount of money each month for basic channels and my favorites like MTV and STYLE. Mr. G and I have had some thoughts lately and finally decided that cable was just not for us anymore. You heard it right, we are not going to have cable. This is bittersweet for me. I love TV, I love watching TV, but I also love saving money..... So off cable went to its original owners and let me just tell you how freaking bored I am without it. SERIOUSLY BORED!!! We have not bought an antenna so we do not have even the basic channels... oh its torture...

In other news Mr. G and I are taking a vacation!! The last vacation out of the state of CO was for our honeymoon, 2 years ago. I have been begging and pleading for a break, so we booked a trip to SC. Oh we are so freaking excited! We leave Friday night and do not come home till Wednesday. OH  MAN, HOW I NEED THIS VACATION! Why SC you ask? Well Mr. G has a friend that he used to work with that lives out there. Her and her hubby got married just 2 months before us and this last Feb, they welcomed twins, Lily and Jack. How cute are those names!! Needless to say, we are going out there to meet the babies and spend time on the beach, in the pool, shop, eat, and love on those beautiful babies. While we are out there, we will also be celebrating our 2 year anniversary! EXCITEMENT IS AN UNDERSTATEMENT!!

Once we get back, I will only have a few short days before I start big boy college in Denver. I am pretty excited, but extremely nervous for the workload.


That's all for now folks! I will update you all with some pictures of our trip!!! Have a great week!

Getting to know me

Two post in a day, I am on a roll!

I figured that since I'm starting my blog over, I would say a few things about me that many people may not know, likes and dislikes and what not, FUN RIGHT?

• I LOVE SLEEP- I love sleep more than a normal human being should love sleep. I would be a happy camper if I got around 10-11 hours of sleep a day, seriously. Unfortunately, because of my schedule, I usually only get about 7-8 if I am lucky.  I am grumpy when I am tired, I get mean and rude when I am tired.
• I am an early riser- I would much rather go to bed early and get up bright and early with the roosters than sleep in late. My "sleeping in" is until about 7-8am. I am up at 445-5am during the week for works so I guarantee that come 9pm, I am ready to pass out. I cant handle late nights out with friends unless we are on the same sleep schedule. if you feed me and put in a dark room (movies, living room, bed) I will be out within minutes. Brings me to my next point
• I fall asleep during movies. DON'T JUDGE ME- I literally feel asleep during the Hangover in the theater because it was too late of a show for me. I suck I know. At home, Mr. G watches movies alone because I will be out within the first 10-20 mins. I miss so many good movies!
• I am an extremely picky eater- I don't much meat. I don't like wild game of any sort (an entire different issue/view on that), I don't eat enough vegetables, I like only sweet fruits (is there any other kind?), I HATE SANDWICHES FOR DINNER, I LOVE DINNER, Desserts is a must at every meal, I don't like avocados, hate cottage cheese, I don't coke, I don't like beer, white bread is disgusting unless it is in the form of a bun or it is french, I don't like cinnamon rolls, not a big fan of mixing pineapple in drinks. That is all i can think about of right now, I am sure that I'm missing a ton more.
• I dont like water- NOPE! I am not one to get in a pool and splash around. I am not one to go scuba diving in the ocean, I am not one to get on a surf board or get into water that will over above my head. I dont like it. I LOVE HOT WATER. I love hot showers and hot tubs, but unless it is extremely hot I will be the one on the side of the pool getting a tan instead of in the pool. 
• I dont like political talk- I love Mr. G very much but I cant talk politics with him or anybody else. I will listen, I will act like I care but I dont like talking about it with individuals. Its not that I dont care what is going on in the world or who is up for presidents, its simply that I dont like to talk about it with people
• Same goes for religion. I believe in god, but Im not going to sit down and talk about religion with a group on peeps while sipping coffee unless we are bffs, then maybe.
• I love coffee
• I strongly believe that if you are a woman, your feet should look nice unless you are in uggs. Don't be in flip flops in public with nasty ass toes. IT IS DISGUSTING and behind my sunglasses, I am more than likely giving you dirty looks- get a pedicure!
• I notice people's hair
• My career goal is to be in labor and delivery- either midwife, obstetrician,  doula, couch, etc.. I have a passion for it.
• I am obsessed with Pregnant Woman. I want to know about pregnancy, what your birth plan is, how you found out, how you announced it, what you are naming your child, I am obsessed with all of it, even the gross details that people don't want to hear. probably because of what im going to school for/career.
• THIS MIGHT SHOCK YOU---- I am not a fan of children... Weird I know, especially since I love pregnancy. I love pregnancy, I love newborns and babies and toddlers, older children like around 5-9 scare the crap out of me. This might be a fear of motherhood for me.... 
• I LOVE LOVE LOVE my dogs, Kane and Avary
• I am a daddy's girl
• I LOVE the Twlight Saga- Edward is just so dreamy
• I love watching medical programs/movies- Grey's Anatomy, NY Med, One Born Every Min
• I enjoy me some reality tv, probably too much
• I dont like the outdoors.... Well dont get me wrong, I love running outside, I like long walks, I like the sun and being outside, but I am not one to be one with nature. I dont really like hikes for more than like 5 miles, I hate camping unless it involves going to a hotel, I dont like dirt or being dirty. 
• I LOVE THE WARM WEATHER- BUT 95+ IN DRY DRY COLORADO IS A BIT FOR ME...I would love some September weather
• I love the fall
• I will be 25 this year- midlife crisis in the works
• I adorable my husband- he is extremely funny even when he says things extremely inappropriate

Ok enough out of me for the day, I am sure you are tired of me ranting how much I hate things....

Y'all (I'm not from texas, I dont think i can say y'all)  You all have a good weekend!

Catch up

I'm back!!! I am warning you, its a long one, so grab a seat, maybe some popcorn.

I have been working on this for 2 days now and finally getting the chance to post it..... Work cuts into my blogging time for sure!

WHERE WE LEFT OFF
The last time I wrote on my blog, I wrote about a notebook that I found of my absent mother. Well since that post, I read that notebook.  Most of it was about my daily doings as an infant, the day that I got extremely sick and was admitted to the hospital, when I got bit by a dog and some little here and there writings. The entries were too few and far between and at the end of the 10 page notebook, she wrote a little note about how she is sad that she cant make it work with my father and how upset that thing ended the way that they did. The end.....

I was angry with that last entry for a while. She choose to leave, she choose to cheat on my father, she choose to be with a drug dealer instead of with her child. How could she write this crap about being sorry, when she decided it. I was over it... Literally, up until now, I have not thought about that notebook or her capability of raising the children that she wanted. I have learned that I cant let her mistakes and her decisions stop me from living my life.

I was asked a few months back, if I could change the way that my life turned out.... Of course there is little things like, I would have tried harder in high school, I wouldn't of been so mean to my brothers growing up, I wouldn't of dated a psycho for so long in high school. BUT those are all little things, I would not have changed the fact that my mother decided to leave. Sure it sucked and it hurt for a LONG time, but my dad gave us kids the best he could, he tried hard to be a mom to me and I would not go back and try to change that. I am a better person now and I am the way I am because she left. I would not change that

MOVING ON
Enough of that nonsense, what else is new?  Well I finished my Slacker Half Marathon in June 2011 that I blogged about.  For it being my first half, it was an amazing adventure, it was hard and I struggled mentally while running during the race, but I did it. I finished with a time of 2:13 which is just 2 minutes short of my goal time.  After that journey I signed up for the Rock 'N' Roll Half Marathon in Oct 2011. Training sucked. I did it, but I hurt my arch 3 weeks before race day, which obviously resulted in a slower running pace, finished with a time of 2:24.

YEAR 1
Mr. G and I celebrated our 1st year anniversary!! Man oh man. I will be completely honest, that first year really tested us and our marriage. I do not understand or know why they say the first year is a challenge but I can be the first to say that it was. It was hard! We luckily made it through, regardless of the blood, sweat and tears that went into that first year.

For our Anniversary, we went to Vail and Beaver Creek for 3 days. It was awesome. It was so great to get out of the busy city and our busy schedules and get away. We ate (I eat like a pig on vacations) we swam, we ate more, we walked around the towns and little shops. We even got in a nice little run and went to this AMAZING cafe for breakfast. If you are even in Vail, CO go to the Evergreen Cafe. It had to of been the best breakfast ever. While sipping our coffee and enjoying the nice crisp morning surrounded by mountain air, we saw a black bear. Yeah, you heard (read) that, a black bear. Mr. G grew up in the mountains, but for this city girl the only bear I have ever seen was on the discovery channel.... Needless to say, it was a great getaway for our first year of marriage!

FAMILY
We welcomed our 2nd nephew, Mr. Lane. We had the privilege of watching big brother while momma and dad where at the hospital, man that was fun, he is a great big brother. Mr. Lane is very mellow and calm and big, he is linebacker status, but oh so cute with his gummy smile!

Mr. G was offered a different position within his company. After years of working in tech support, he moved up to an internal sales rep within his company. He LOVES It. He loves who he works with, he loves the possibilities that this position has for him and he can continue working up. It's exciting!

At the end of May, we lost a beloved woman. Mr. G's grandma passed away at the age of 85. She was the mother to 16 children, 30+ grand children, 15+ great grand children, and 1 great great grandchild. She lived a full life of laughter and love. We will miss her horribly but she is where she belongs, with the lord and her late husband. Love you Grandma!

SCHOOL
I officially completed my Associate's Degree of Science at the community college in Dec 2011. I was so glad to be done with it and move on. I did do another semester at the community college to complete another credit for Biology for 2 reasons. 1) it was way way cheaper that the university 2) it was closer to where we live.

As of June 2012, I was officially a CU Denver Student, I start my classes in Aug. I'm extremely excited to be at the BIG BOY COLLEGE as I call it, but I am also scared because I got used to a small baby school and now i will be running with the big kids. My schedule is a little ridic but I am so ready to be done with school that I will torture myself for the next few months. CU BUFFS!!!! WHOOHHHOOOOOO!!!

I think we are all caught up!

Long time no talk

Hello All,
Not sure if anybody is even following me anymore, but after a bit of blog soul searching and some time off, I AM BACK!!!

In the next few days, I will be messing around with my background, layout, settings, and what not so please bare with me!

I am excited to be back in the blogging world and really hope that I can really make this work this time!!

Thank you for your patience and I promise I will be back to catch you all up on my life!!

Notebook

Hi!

I wouldn't want to get all emotional on here, but I want to get something off my chest....

In a previous post, I am sure that I have wrote about my biological mother. You know, the woman that left her poor helpless children for drugs and a lifestyle that nobody would dream of wanting?? Yup, that is the one.

Anyways, I was over at my padre's house on Sunday for a quick stop and my little bro, Ty Ty (Justin Bieber look alike) gave me a notebook.

A notebook that supposedly my mother wrote in from when I was born to when she left. Each entry was addressed to me, a diary to me I suppose.

I grabbed the notebook and we left shortly after. On Monday, I was on my way to work, I grabbed the notebook and stuck it in my purse, thinking, well maybe I will read it if I get bored at work...  Now that it is Thursday, I have yet to look at the notebook. I haven't really had a chance to read it due to work responsibilities, but  I am afraid to read it.

Afraid is probably the best way I can explain how I feel about the notebook.  Afraid that I will all the thoughts and feelings that I have had bottled inside for 15 years will just spill out onto the floor. Afraid that it will bring back old emotions over again, that I have to learn to get over and move on from.

I just dont think I want to bring that onto myself at this stage in the game. I have grown up without a mother for so long and to think that maybe in that gray, rustic, torn apart, smelly notebook, it will somehow show that she cared for me as her child. That she wanted to be my mom instead of a drug addict to gave her children up to get high.

I have so many emotions that nobody knows about because I have made myself believe that I was not hurt by the fact that she abandoned me. She abandoned her flesh and blood, she abandoned her babies. Not just me but my baby brothers, her family. I am over it.....

I'm not ready for the notebook. I am not reading the notebook.

HELLO!?

It's me again! I know,I know, I suck at blogging! I do....

I could try to come up with some great excuse as to why I have been away for so long, but honestly I dont have any excuses. I check my blogger everyday, catch up on other blogs, but I dont write anything on my own. I justify it with the fact that I don't have anything to write about.

Nobody really wants to read, let alone listen to me rant about my daily doings. I'm boring.

But I am here today to share some events that I am pretty excited about. Drum roll please........

June 25th, I will be running my first Half Marathon!!!! Woo Hooo!! After a few years and a countless amount of times, I said "I am not ready", I signed up.

My sister in law, Jamie (shout out!) mentioned  The Slacker Half Marathon a few times. I thought to myself, what a great way to spend some time with her and do something that I have been longed to do.... I went to the website and officially signed up.

I have been training my butt off! At first, it was really hard. I surely thought I wouldn't make it 5 miles.  But with the encouragement of Mr. G and family, I was able to make it up to 10 miles. Yup!  Only 3 more miles and so far I am feeling good! I have discovered the love of running! Being able to just take each step as I listen to beloved Damien Rice and look at the hills and roads around me in beautiful Colorado. It is a great feeling! I'm so excited, I can barely hide it!


In other good news,,, I signed up for one of my last semesters before my I move on to Big Boy College for my Bachelor Degree. I know that doesn't seem like much, but it will open the door to many of my dreams and I am so over going to community college. I think mostly, it will be a sense of accomplishment, considering I have been doing my associates degree for like 5 years off and on.  It will feel nice to have half of it done and then on to the real deal.

Wish me luck, I will most certainly need it within the next 9 weeks through this semester.

Thanks for Listening/Reading! :)